1. I go to sleep every night praying to a god that I don't believe in that I'll die in my sleep or that something will kill me the next day. Everywhere I go and everything I do; I wish that I could just die. I go into public places hoping that there will be a shooting and that I am the only one that dies.
2. I tried to kill myself by hanging myself a few years ago. My brother found me and saved my life. I pretend that that was the last time I thought about it, but every day of my life I regret that it didn't work.
3. My stomach literally hurts, and I feel like crying at everything and even nothing. I have no energy to do anything. When I wake up in the morning, I just stay in bed. It's been like this for years and I don't see an end in sight.
4. For me, depression is a constant wave of bad emotions. I just keep thinking the worst about myself. I hate my life. I hate where I am in life. I don't have a job. I don't have a relationship. I wake up every morning knowing that I am a failure. I wish I could take a magic pill to end it all.
5. I feel like I'm the dumbest person on the planet. I hate myself. I'm a failure and a waste of space on this planet. I take medication and it doesn't help. I don't know if I need an increase, but I don't like to talk about my depression, so I just pretend like everything is ok. I go about my day as if everything is normal, but inside I'm always thinking about how I don't want to exist anymore.
6. I first experienced depression during menopause. I didn't want to work anymore after years of being happy at my job. I didn't want to go out or do anything really. I stopped being interested in sex with my partner after having a healthy sex drive for most of my life. I listen to music and draw to cope, but the feeling of depressions is always underlying.
7. The only place I find comfort is in the bathtub and when I'm sleeping. I don't want to think about anything or do anything. I just want to feel the water on my skin and forget about living. I'm tired all the time and sleep for more than twelve hours at a time.
8. Depression takes over your whole life. It eats away at you from the inside. No words can make it better. No kind gestures can make it go away. It's always there. I'm always faking a smile when someone does something nice for me. It's not that I don't appreciate these things; I just can't find it in myself to not be depressed. My family is always trying to cheer me up and make me feel better, but nothing works.
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